I turned 49 today. I have a wife and kids that I adore. I am afraid to do most things with them.
I’ve been suffering from anxiety for most of my life, although I’ve only just realized this a few years ago. Panic attacks began around fourteen years ago, and I’ve struggled with them and sometimes crippling anxiety since. I sometimes feel like my wife’s third child, which is pretty emasculating.
I am doing what I can to get better, and I actually have over the years- somewhat. I would still like to have a normal life. I see people who fly all the time, and it just boggles my mind. How do you do it?
I am reading a book called Half-Assed: A Weight-loss Memoir by Jennette Fulda, and she talks about how her blog helped her on her weight-loss journey. I’ve been wanting to write some of this down for a long time, even started a book once. I’m not sure how this blog thing works, but I am excited to try this. Maybe it will help me on my journey to sanity.
Welcome to my world. Won’t you help me be uncrazy?